It seemed like all eyes were on me to lead us into greener pastures, to lead us into a better place. I wasn’t in a rush though, there wasn’t really a reason to rush, there was plenty of time to do everything that had to be done. There was plenty of time to find love, marry, have children.
There were things that I wanted to do, like join clubs, so that I could have a social life. One of the best things about my job was that I could work from home, and I did frequently. It gave me a chance to quickly do my work tasks and then go do my own thing, join clubs, visit friends, I had a social life and I was glad.
In a spur of the moment I texted Kole a little flirty text. He texted back asking if I wanted to meet up. Instantly I was nervous, I did want to meet him but I also had no idea what I was doing. I had never had a romantic partner, this was new territory to me.
We met at the bluffs and started a light flirtation. That flirtation spiraled into more rather quickly. I wonder if he had been thinking about me in a romantic way before, had he just been waiting for me? Obviously Kole had a more feminine body shape than most men, and I wonder if it made him self conscious when it came to romance. I found it attractive.
Romance came easier than I had thought with Kole, I just followed my instincts and things just fell into place, like his hands falling into mine. I wasn’t good at envisioning the future, planning for it, so I couldn’t say for sure that I could see myself growing elderly with Kole, but for now he made me feel nice, feel happy.
He was quite a few firsts, including my first kiss. I think he was surprised that I kissed him, just as I was surprised that I did it too. I had known this would be a bit of a romantic outing, perhaps I had underestimated just how far it would go. After that our lips found each other’s much more often, our romance quickly progressing.
I was so nervous when I asked him if he would go steady with me, but he said yes. I had my very first boyfriend. We ended the evening there, mostly because it had turned into morning and he had to get to the library for work. I hoped he wouldn’t be too tired, time had just slipped past me without me noticing.
There was only one person that I wanted to tell about my new relationship, Hanna. After a quick power nap I called her up and invited her to one of the fancy lounges in the city. She was happy to hear the good news and I loved spending time with her.
Hanna and I had been friends for a long time, she knew me well and accepted all my flaws and faults- even the big ones, the big cracks in my psyche. For me to find happiness, healthy romantic happiness, we both knew it was something that I hadn’t expected to happen. I had expected failed romances, single-motherhood with a sperm donor or something. The relationship was early, but Kole was one of the best things that had ever happened to me.
Hanna and I were best friends, and I won’t lie, she was gorgeous and when I had first befriended her I had a small crush on her. I had possibly had hope for us but just hadn’t been able to make it happen, to make those ‘moves’. I didn’t want to ruin our friendship, but with Kole… One semi-flirtatious text and he had made the first move- us going out. After that it had been easy. There was just no way I’d ruin my friendship with Hanna.
That didn’t mean my attraction stopped, but honestly, who wasn’t attracted to Hanna? And my mind was on Kole, Kole and his kisses. Kole kisses.